THIS STORY IS STARTED ON ( 12 Dec 2010 ) that time i just want to see how much contact on my phone and when i see 1 name from all of my contacts... i just want to make a friends but i dont know why i can fall in love on her. from thats time my life is changed, before meet with her my life is really really a happiest life like always i do.
but from there we build a relationship, that relationship give me a lesson about many things to feel from the Happiest Moments With HER even a Sadness moments with HER, but time by time i want to Hate her but when i want to hate her that just make me more Love her... i always pray and ask to GOD "what's going on my life why YOU changed my life like this??"... and the funny thing i choose to tell is when i make a training pants with the number "14" i just realized that number is symbolized about her name and after that whenever i see number "14" i always remember about her but with the moments i feel... sometimes thats number is make me more stronger if i keep remember about the good thing between me and her but sometimes that number make my stamina and my inspiration is down.
From there i know she was my reason to keep alive on this cruel life....
and i never ever want to lose her...NEVER EVER. except she's who's want me to stay away from her life
but i won't let her life unprotected from this cruel life but before that i want to make she's have a happy life even i must sacrificed OUR RELATIONSHIP if that can keep you happy i will do that and seeing you with the other guys?? i wont angry because i know you gonna happy with that, and if you know what i feel when i heard you use something like that.. i didnt angry cause i know you gonna changed if i telling you how dangerous that thing... but when you angry to me and said "i already grow up i know what is the good for me and the bad for me you didnt need to tell me like that!!!" and from that words i know "We Are Different" and there is gonna be a time when you want me to stay away and get out of your life and because that i always keep silent and make my mental is ready when you said that...
"maybe you not gonna let me go and broke this relationship between you and me but what i scared is you gonna heard what your friends said just because im is not leveled with all of your friends" and if that happens you must be changed to me like "we are never meet" or you gonna act like i'm is not existed on your world... I DON'T CARE even you gonna do that to me... i will keep protecting you from far. i'm not want to be a hero for this world and i didn't want to act like a hero front of your eyes... i just want to show about the real promise.
"and so many people even your best friend who's want me to hate you" but they didn't know what they said to me is really really worked to make me trusted what they said... and that thing who's make me angry to you and asked you about the truth but i asking you with a loud voices and full of emotion and make you angry to me and you gonna stay away from me with full of natural choice... for your friend "IT'S WORKED.GOOD JOB"
and from there i more know about there is gonna be a lot of trouble that i need to solve if i want to keep contacted with you... and i won't give up even that trouble is needed a sacrifice to solve i will solve that, i do that just to make i still contacted with you... and time by time i tell about your relationship with me to my friends and when i sad of you im always tell her about you and me but she's always support me and who knows?? she's loved me but she's gonna let me happy with i want... and when i argue with the "14 symbolized girl" i always matching her and the other girl that keep supporting me to get her...
but for now i still loved "14" and what i are doing with the other girl is just to make my feeling to get better
cause "14" is not gonna heard what i want to tell to her... (To Be Continued)
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