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Wednesday, 19 December 2012

The Lost City Of Atlantis


we know about Atlantis don't you?? Atlantis is a name of an island that rumors said the place of smart and maybe genius civilization that have lived on this world and rumor said Atlantis is full of treasure and full of information about many thing that we didn't know... it's like a BIG MUSEUM full of ancient treasure and full of information, and MAYBE CAUSE that place is full of information that island was GONE and no one know what can make that island is gone... from there that island is called "The Lost City of Atlantis" and always many question about it and cause of that.. many adventurer that have a destination to find the The Lost City of Atlantis and everytime there was always a adventurer that find it but none of them that back to their home its still a mystery what make the adventurer gone?? a monster eat them??, killed by a trap on Atlantis??, or they choose to stay cause they have found what they want??...mystery doesn't it??
 there was a rumor that said Atlantis have been founded but always changed everyday "is that island can move??" so WEIRD.... if you wanna know more about this read it at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atlantis

About Love (pt 4)

for now we're still close but i've just know it.... our relationship is on weak condition that can be broken at anytime. i don't know whats going on with me now, my emotion...my emotion, its to hard to be controlled and it's weird for me cause everytime i've been bullied by other students and i still can control my emotion to don't be get angry and yap my emotion is getting better. but now i don't know when my friends bullied me its like there was a fire on my body , its feel like my head been hotted by something ,and its make me want to punch their head, break their neck, and its feel like i want to bites them and cut them into a little pieces....argh damn... if you wanna know why, the reason why i've always gone when you close with somebody else?? what you're doing that time is make me angry and before my anger reach their climax its better if i go to the other places.the place thats gonna make my anger is gone....

and today i know how stupid am... i always ask you with loud voice about "you've changed to me" but who's been changed is ME... i've been changed.

i've heard the rumors about you're like someone.... thats my friend, before we've got a little problem that broke our friendship... you know when i heard that rumors?? i happy now cause you gonna got someone thats gonna make you feel happy everytime maybe he's gonna become your moodbooster not like me.....i just can make you feeling sad everytime make you get hurt cause heard the truth about all of our stories, i just gonna become your moodbreaker doesn't it?? of course you gonna answer "yes"... but on otherside my feeling is getting hurt cause heard that rumors.... and thats make me asking you like that asking about you and him.... and you answered "no, i didn't like him" ok i trust you.... but next day i heard the new rumors but same like before and i asking you again and for the second time you answered me "how much i must tell you I DIDN'T LIKE HIM...that was other people said and where is the fact i like him??" and i always push my doubt out of it... and after a few minute you said "you never trusted me" noo...... i trusted you and not long from that day i heard again about that rumors and this time that rumor just give me a fact about you, i've look you with all of my eye(2 eye of course) and what i see is you are close with him and on twitter you reply his mention first than me but i've mention you first... and you reply my mention with full of short words but you reply his mention with many words on you mention. and cause of that i didn't reply your mention... and i want to keep it as secret but i can't hide it, i asking you about it and you answered me with many full of words and all of that word is give me many doubt about all of your answer before... and my friend tell me again the new rumors about you and him and i answered "hey that just a rumor, i've been asking to her about that and she's answer that just a lie to me" and my friend tell me "she's always hide it and she's just lied to you" and he's tell me more about fact of that rumors even he's tell me again all of fact about that twitter fact. and thats make me ask to don't lie to me but you answered with the same answer and i tell you about the fact and still the same answer and i tell you to tell me about the truth and don't lie to me cause if you tell me the truth i won't get angry but if you lied to me about that i will hate you and broke our relationship... and why you didn't tell me the truth cause that rumors is make me sick and confused everyday.(i still have a doubt on it)and then i asking you again "i'm is just you friend why you keep hide it and didn't tell me the truth???" and you answered "HOW MUCH I MUST TELL YOU... I DIDN'T LIKE HIM" and it's make me remove all of my doubt and i trust you but on my heart i said (but if you lied to me i don't know what i'm gonna do to you?!) i hide this from you but if you read this thread of course its not a secret again"back to the stories".... and for now i've just can train my trust for you and thats story is give me a few lessons.... about to give more trust feel on you and to don't easily trust about the RUMOR cause that was just a rumor always be full of DOUBT and that was all of the lessons that i've learned from this story...............(To Be Continued)

Tuesday, 18 December 2012

About Love (pt 3)

All Of Our Memories...

when we still didn't know each other we always meet on the school....always, but you didn't recognize me
after that we start to know each other and not long from that time i've recognized it i start to like you...... 
cause of that why i always send you a messages, messages that always disturb you and i think we already being been a friend... you said about we are not a friend so after many conversation between you and i that was just a little chitchat?? you make me SAD... 

and after 2 weeks(maybe) i heard the news about you and your new boyfriend...thats the most pain moment i feel, i've been try to forget you and go without a footprints... and after a few months you've been break up with that guy, if you wanna know? i really really don't care about that..(for a few days i think like i've been forget about you) then i feel happy and live with normal life again...

not long from that month you've been have a new boyfriend(again) but what i confused at is... i don't like you anymore but why?...why i've become jealous at it(?) and i always ask that to myself, with full of question like that i've been success to forget about you... and mylife?? going back to normal just for a few months.. yeah just for a few months.
when i and my family went to australia just 1 day before flight..you've been send me a messages and talking about im is the first person that give you a few words on your birthday and we start talk each other(on messages of course) but i answer all of your messages with a normal feelings cause that time i'm not like you anymore... after a few weeks from vacation it's still like before, always normal.

and i start to talk with you again but this time i've just want to be a friend for you...but what i most feared is return to my life again... i like you(again) and we still close like always as a friend and then i've try to ask you but you rejected me and yeah i've just try to move on from you but for me is hard to forget, you know why??

everytime i see "14" is just make me remember about you,that was for number and then "N" that give me more memories to remember from alphabet and i've try to throw my football clothes team cause i give number for my football team clothes is "14" and if i wear that... that just gonna make me more weak cause everytime i playing a football with that clothes is just give me some fision about my sad memories from you.

and i've forget about like and i try to close with you again but this time i didn't want to become your friend but i want to become your best friend...and its repeated again for 3 times until now(yeah now..until now, yeah im still writing about this) but for now i've just want to become everything for you...from a friend, best friend,a brother, im gonna become a place for you to share when you feeling sad, i want to become your protector and everything if that can make me to stay close with you... (To Be Continued)

Saturday, 8 December 2012

About Love (pt 2)

...... when we are on the happiest moment, there is a other boy that like her too and he's asked her to became his girlfriend and talk like he's really really serious to make a relationship with her... and she's accept him, what i feel is like i already been fainted, the reason why i can't forget her it's because she's became his girlfriend when we're on the happiest moment... and she's just go away with him and forget about me it's feel like we're never known each other and she's just forget all of happy memories between us... it's hurt and that's was 4 days before my birthday....

(Days 1) from all of messages there was none of her message for me. it's make me angry and think "So... you forget me and throw me like a trash?" from that time is i became more angry to her...

(Days 2) that time... i've just can play with my friends, maybe everyone think i've been normal again but in fact even when i playing a games her face.....her face, when i close my eyes someone that never go from my sight even in the dark...its the hurt that i've been hide from everyone..one of my friends said "you've just need to play football to forget her try that" how can i play football if everytime i've got the ball i've just imagine about her... thats still 02.45pm and 5 minutes later i've got tired and try to get some sleep but when i close my eyes her face, her smile with full of happines right on her faces. its like my mind want me to thinking about her but the destiny has been make they decision to let her go with him.. i can't forget that but that makes me cry for a while before sleep..... but what makes me can sleep tight is her face.

(Days 3) from the morning there still not anynews from her... i still can't believe she's already been forget about me, from there i just can crying 'till there was not anything to be cried for...and after a hours she's send me a message. but she's already been late to send the message.cause i've been believe she's already forget about me.... that's my reason to didn't reply the message.

(Days 4 "My Birthday") when my birthday come she's send me a message and she's said she's been late send the message for my birthday is cause she's can't wake up when the alarms on... i replied the messages that times, but what i said to her is all of my emotion for her, all of what i feel when she's forget me... for 4 days i've been cried and always gone from my friends cause i still thinking about her if i smile that was just a fake to hide what i feel right that time. she's say sorry for this, but i've just read the last messages from her but she's keep send me a message, sorry ,sorry and sorry if she know.. i always forgive her........... even before she's do that to me.... my sister always said i'm is a stupid and really really dumb cause i've just can cried for someone that never cried for me, love someone that never love me, find news of someone that never find my news, care for someone that never care about me, my sister hate her just because she's do that to me and she's said she's hate her more than that,sometimes i always heard what my sister said. she throw me? why i didn't throw her too, but i can't.... i can't throw her...it's like try to throwing my heart if i throw it how can all of my body work?? if i throw her its like a normal life that maybe need to be deleted from the world...she's never gone from my sight.

From that time our relationship is broken...we never talk each other, we never greet each other when we meet on the school, i keep try to forget about her but one of she's friends talked to me and make me to keep fight for her... but i've recoginized about we can't be together so i've just says "i don't care with who she's go... i don't care everything what she's been do, but i still want to protect her from far" 

and after a big trouble that make our relationship broken... we've been make a new relationship even that was from zero again, we start talking each other again and it's become a normal again...not long from that moment one of my bestfriend like her... "bestfriend?!" that was make me to surrender of her cause my friend is better than me and i know she's gonna choose him and that trouble is been make us to far again for 2 week. and when we're far few of her friends is talking bad of her and i keep defend her name front of them... but when i asking about what they said, "yes" like that she's answer me i thinking about "so what they said is true?...why i defend lie from the truth?!" and that makes us far, AGAIN... for almost 3 weeks we far and when we far i keep help one my friend that have a same problem... with full of liar i don't care i must lied to them if that can make them being been back like before. i will lied and now they have been like before. i already been success

but always like before, i can't forget about her. thats make me remember about our problem thats still need to be fixed.... we start talk each other again but all of her friend is angry to me and they annoying me by talking like that about me... and i lost of my control and when i've been back to my home i keep thinking "why i must do that" and that days they said they already been forgiving me, but the next day all of her friends is act like still angry to me and that makes me angry again and i know they gonna make her to stay away from me and after think about that i start to stay away from her and try to close with the other girl but what i've been talking is just about her, just her,.... just her......., that was what i keep talking about....i hope she's didn't heard what all of teachers said bad about me and didn't heard all of she's friend and all of my friends said cause they don't know what i've been talking about... like i said before i've just talking about her.....all of my conversation is just about her...JUST HER... (To Be Continued)

Sunday, 2 December 2012

"The Quileute Tribe Legends"



http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quileute_people : The Quileute , also known as the Quillayute , are a Native American people in western Washingtonstate in the United States, currently numbering approximately 2000. The Quileute people settled onto the Quileute Indian Reservation after signing the Quinault Treaty in 1855. It is located near the southwest corner of Clallam County, Washington at the mouth of the Quillayute River on the Pacific coast. The reservation's main population center is the community of La Push, Washington. The 2000 census reported an official resident population of 371 people on the reservation, which has a land area of 4.061 km² (1.5678 sq mi, or 1,003.4 acres).They have their own government inside the United States that consists of a tribal council with staggered terms. The current tribal council consists of: Carol Hatch (chair), Tony Foster (vice-chair), DeAnna Hobson (secretary), and Anna Rose Counsell (treasurer).

About Love (pt 1)

THIS STORY IS STARTED ON ( 12 Dec 2010 ) that time i just want to see how much contact on my phone and when i see 1 name from all of my contacts... i just want to make a friends but i dont know why i can fall in love on her. from thats time my life is changed, before meet with her my life is really really a happiest life like always i do.

but from there we build a relationship, that relationship give me a lesson about many things to feel from the Happiest Moments With HER even a Sadness moments with HER, but time by time i want to Hate her but when i want to hate her that just make me more Love her... i always pray and ask to GOD "what's going on my life why YOU changed my life like this??"... and the funny thing i choose to tell is when i make a training pants with the number "14" i just realized that number is symbolized about her name and after that whenever i see number "14" i always remember about her but with the moments i feel... sometimes thats number is make me more stronger if i keep remember about the good thing between me and her but sometimes that number make my stamina and my inspiration is down.

From there i know she was my reason to keep alive on this cruel life....
and i never ever want to lose her...NEVER EVER. except she's who's want me to stay away from her life
but i won't let her life unprotected from this cruel life but before that i want to make she's have a happy life even i must sacrificed OUR RELATIONSHIP if that can keep you happy i will do that and seeing you with the other guys?? i wont angry because i know you gonna happy with that, and if you know what i feel when i heard you use something like that.. i didnt angry cause i know you gonna changed if i telling you how dangerous that thing... but when you angry to me and said "i already grow up i know what is the good for me and the bad for me you didnt need to tell me like that!!!" and from that words i know "We Are Different" and there is gonna be a time when you want me to stay away and get out of your life and because that i always keep silent and make my mental is ready when you said that...

"maybe you not gonna let me go and broke this relationship between you and me but what i scared is you gonna heard what your friends said just because im is not leveled with all of your friends" and if that happens you must be changed to me like "we are never meet" or you gonna act like i'm is not existed on your world... I DON'T CARE even you gonna do that to me... i will keep protecting you from far. i'm not want to be a hero for this world and i didn't want to act like a hero front of your eyes... i just want to show about the real promise.

"and so many people even your best friend who's want me to hate you" but they didn't know what they said to me is really really worked to make me trusted what they said... and that thing who's make me angry to you and asked you about the truth but i asking you with a loud voices and full of emotion and make you angry to me and you gonna stay away from me with full of natural choice... for your friend "IT'S WORKED.GOOD JOB"

and from there i more know about there is gonna be a lot of trouble that i need to solve if i want to keep contacted with you... and i won't give up even that trouble is needed a sacrifice to solve i will solve that, i do that just to make i still contacted with you... and time by time i tell about your relationship with me to my friends and when i sad of you im always tell her about you and me but she's always support me and who knows?? she's loved me but she's gonna let me happy with i want... and when i argue with the "14 symbolized girl" i always matching her and the other girl that keep supporting me to get her...

but for now i still loved "14" and what i are doing with the other girl is just to make my feeling to get better
cause "14" is not gonna heard what i want to tell to her... (To Be Continued)

Introduction About The Writer

my name is Hanif and my age is still young of course, 14 years old and just that for now because the other thing is PRIVACY but just a few... haha Ok Let's Get Started Blogging